This blogsite is working in silence. Just like its owner, nobody knows what is going through her mind. The reason why she got attracted creating this stuff is because this where she can secretly input her ideas, opinions, reactions to things that she encounter in her world. For her, this is where she can contemplate on matters that we seldom give importance. So most of the entries that you will find here are with respect to scenes that she had undertaken.
Rewriting my thought/memory that is a week old.
Is at a church in Ayala, looking for strength and a comrade after being emotionally beaten up. I had called my friend to share my angst but unfortunately she is busy. However, my feet lead me to this place. It seems that He is the only One who is willing to attend to my tantrums and complains.
As written, let anyone cast false accusation upon you & yet let them continue. Do not think of revenge nor bad mouth him/her. I wish it is easy to do, especially if you’ve been trying hard to understand the person who keeps on doing the same thing. I wanted to reason out, I wanted to counter-act the wrong doings but I find it hard to do because I know He wouldn’t like it. I’d rather suffer silently than to see her boast her triumph on being mean.
It is good that I have dropped by or else I could have been wrapped into a ball of madness. Even by just staying for a short while, it gives me comfort and peace inside. Now I pray for her to change her attitude and for her to realize that what she is doing is wrong.
This is the third year that I am recalling all that I had encountered the past 365 days and so far I am not yet getting bored doing this. Well, before I start writing about my 2011 just wanna share a list(while I was contemplating on what to write) which I consider had totally swept my outgoing year.
faith
music
game
movies
books
quotes
fashion
parties
places
gadgets
work
knowledge
beliefs
people
health
achievements
shoes
dreams
friends
inferiorities
priorities
photography
society
environment
Actually there’s a bunch more but I just can’t remember them all.
It’s difficult to compile all the events that happened this year, and I am afraid that I’ll miss some great things. But I can’t stop myself going back to memories lane again. So let’s start unpacking & see if it’s a handful. :).
In my 26 years of existence, I can say that 2011 has been a good and humbling year. Not that I am not thankful for the 25 years but it is just that, really God has been showering us goodness. Back in those dark moments, me and my family went through a lot of struggles & unjust situations that sometimes you wanna quit on dreaming but suddenly life’s course starts to change and you get to be shocked it is real. And this year had spun my world into a better one. We are not just talking about the earthly stuff that I had acquired but more to that is the feeling that God is guiding me in all that I do.
Let’s look at the highlights of my 2011.
1. my Bible- The first thing I think I had bought during the year’s ingress. For several years, I was planning to personally have although I do have one before unfortunately I got lazy reading everything(guess that is one thing everyone needs to overcome when you have the desire to know the word). Since I was young I have been seriously taught by my mother about God but along the way questions about my religion & practices popped into my curiosity. Although I am afraid that I am doing & thinking things wrong but I can’t keep myself from knowing on how to correctly worship God. Worthy that I am, I gave myself a new year present a BIBLE. While I was talking with a group of people, somebody mentioned that to possess a Bible & have the dedication to read & learn what is written has a calling. It actually gave me goosebumps, but deep inside I know it made an impact on me. Eversince I was young, I am fascinated on things that is related to my faith, from children’s story about Jesus Christ, Noah’s Ark, Moses leading Israelites out of Egypt, Adam & Eve and more. It is also thru these stories that I developed my reading interest. Right now I am not yet done reading the whole book but I am happy that it is my constant companion before I end or start my day. So far, it made me see things differently and make me appreciate things big or small. And as I start my 2012 I will try hard not to skip a day without reading a verse or a chapter(sometimes I do forget). :)
2. Porkless- I had pork removed from my diet menu. It was difficult at first to resist or not to envy pals eating pork especially if you are used to having it on your meal. I can still remember, I indulged into a pork fiesta before taking it off my life, so the last menu I had with it was roasted pork. Even if friends would make fun of me because I don’t eat pork anymore still I am not tempted to have it in my plate again. And what’s good with it is you won’t get bulgy that fast, so right now I am enjoyin a lil less chubby me than how I look before. Total goodbyes to lechon, dinuguan, chicharon, adobo, sisig, lechon kawali, humba, and sinigang na baboy.
3. Travel- an unplanned travel actually, my second out-of-country travel & both of which were sponsored ^^,. Although it wasn’t a total leisure travel, still I get to see some of the best spots of the country. From a religious tabernacle, to its sky scrapers & awestrucking pool in the middle of a bar it completed my visit in Malaysia. So as 2012 comes I hope to see another country again, maybe Korea?
4. Makeover- I keep on complaining about the way I look. Eventhough I openly admit that I am not beautiful but that doesn’t mean I get my hands off to giving myself a personal gratification. After a long battle with what I should do with my hair, for the first time I give it some kick by having it dyed and a haircut without being afraid of what the outcome will be. I never imagined that I would like my new hairstyle and I love the natural locks of my hair (no need for digital perm). Lesson I learned, love your hair & just know what is best for it. So like it. :D
5. Badminton- I never thought I’ll ever won a tournament but I got two championships this year. Well, they aren’t yet the big kind of tournaments in the country but it makes me feel happy to have some sort of token from the game I love the most. And I will be working hard in God’s grace to be better each day at court.
6. Better room- Only when I started living in the city did I have the privilege to have a bedroom. As someone who belongs to a less fortunate family, a bedroom means that you have share it with some family members whether it’s a hot or cold day & night. Now, I have my own bedroom & I can freely place all the stuff that I have. It’s not elegant nor as comfy as other bedrooms are but I don’t care, as long as I have a good sleep that’s all fine & natural ventilation is a two thumbs up for me.
There are other things which I ought to add to the highlights but I guess it needs a little more of time to be considered as something life changing or really extraordinary that happened in my life. It may seem that 2011 is a firework but there are also times when I had my equal share with unhappy and excruciating moments, only that there are more things that I should be thankful of. As another exciting year comes, I pray that all I have learned from the previous years will be a guide for me as I move to another chapter. And to the Almighty I offer the incoming year. Hopefully it will be filled with peace, love, and serenity.
